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Monday, December 4th, 2006
1:21 am	Time to make nice... Souris hadn't change one bit. It has been six years and she still is impossible to deal with.  Jean-luc chuckled to himseld silently while starting the camp fire. It was like she had never left even though they hadn't seen each other in forever. Still, it was good to see her. It felt nice to have something from a much simpler time come back into his life. Even though Souris had never been simple even when they were young, it was her unfaultering innocence that refreshed Jean to the point of honest-to-gods joy. They did, however, get along about as well as they had when they were kids. They had been reunited for only a couple of days and already they have been giving each other the silent treatment. She had been looking for him for a number of years apparently. This surprised him. They had both grown up and moved on, or so he thought. He at least moved on. He thought that after thier home town burned to the ground that all ties between the old residents were also ashes. Jean thought that maybe it was time to try to talk to her again. She deserved to at least know what he had been up to for the past few years, even the hard parts. It'll help, in general, to talk about it anyway. Jean got up from the fire and walked over to were the silver haired girl was sitting. He sat down next to her. "Can we talk?" (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
1:10 pm	For those who wish to know what is going on.... Apparently, I haven't been showing enough of myself in my work. I'm too much in my head when I'm onstage. It appears that people's concerns were addressed to me, but I didn't do anything about it. That fact of the matter is, I was trying to get better at not thinking about what I was doing and just feeling. However, none of the faculty "saw" the work I was doing and assumed I didn't care. FUCK.....THAT! Sorry, momentary lapse of self control. Because they didn't take the time to see me try to improve myself I get kicked out. Granted my improvement was a slow process and it's only a two year degree program, but I didn't know it was serious enough for dismissal. Maybe I should have tried more to talk with the faculty about my troubles. The problem is, I didn't feel comfortable doing that because I felt under constant scrutiny. I just wanted to prove that I could do it. I am not completely without blame, but my grades were satisfactory as far as the degree requirements are concerned, and I was working on my problems with the process itself. However, all that doesn't matter now. I am going to move on from this and bust my ass to prove them wrong. I don't need a BFA to get what I want in life. All it was going to do was make things a fraction less difficult. I can achieve all I want to achieve without that stupid "F" between my "B" and "A". I will move on from this and work hard. Thank you everyone for your love and support. Even from the most surprising of sources. Peace out. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Birds chirping outside. (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 3rd, 2006
11:02 pm	Ok, I haven't done this in a long time... Well, its official, I have been kicked out of the BFA program. The problem is, I don't know what happened. I was doing all the things that I was supposed to be doing. I don't think that it was completely something that I did. I think that part of it was a political bullshit. What really sodomizes my teddy bear is that I can't defend myself. Marci has just informed me that I can do whatever I want because I've got nothing to lose.... The problem is I wish that there is something that I could do to make it better. I am in such a dark place right now. I want everyone to know that I will be fine. I will get through this. I just want to know what I did wrong. I haven't posted anything in such a long time that I have forgotten how to do it. My apologies to those who want to know more about the situation. The thing is, I don't know myself. I'm ok. ....I'm ok.... Current Mood: Indescribable Current Music: I'm not ok (I promise) - My Chemical Romance (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 14th, 2004
12:04 pm	Time of Judgement!!!!! The Final Battle has arrived. Margrave Yuri Konietzko and Queen Tamara Tvarivich call all warriors of Gaia to join with them to defeat the Wyrm at last. Forces gather at the Sept of the Night Sky. Do not tarry! Time to bust out the Klaives and kick a little Wyrm ass!!! Current Mood: Full of Rage (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 29th, 2003
5:09 pm	My dad is reading my Book of Auspices.....and he seems interested....God help us all. Current Mood: weird (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 27th, 2003
10:24 am	Standing here looking through thinking what can I do my options are so few No way to start new Looking back through the glass knowing what is in the past seeing it move away so fast the wind blows a whithered cast Being on the outside remembering the in going to run and hide feeling the pain begin Seeing through with this animal vision hunting through all these decisions Finding a long lost passion And feeling its sensation The future is so hazy to my eyes However, the time draws nigh to myself I ask this: Why? Do you want me to lie....? Being on the outside remembering the in going to run and hide feeling the pain begin Doing all I can But it is not enough fast is the flow of the sand feeling its touch so rough Something has to be done or all will be lost but so far it has gone and high will be the cost I'm ready for what's ahead it burns deep within me There should be nothing to dread For the in should see Being on the outside remembering the in going to run and hide feeling the pain begin Being on the outside remembering the in wanting to run and hide but it all must begin Let it begin... A poem by Chris Coursy 2003 Current Mood: numb Current Music: None. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 26th, 2003
12:02 am	Maybe if I ignore something it will just go away.... (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 24th, 2003
10:56 pm	Saturday, we are doing a another small film. Anybody who wishes to be involved is welcome to come. Everybody is guarenteed camera time. It is going to be a short about Twister. I would really like whoever wants to be involved to comment or call me before Saturday. I was thinking of doing it early because I know of a lot of people who work in the evening. We are going to be filming at Kelly's house, and if it works out for everybody I'd like you all to be there by 10:30 am. Does this work, if not I'm flexible. I want as many people as possible. My mains need to get back to me on whether or not they can show up on Saturday. I have everyone's ok except for these people: Carol Chris Alex...are you still going to be our spinner, if not let me know please. As stated, everybody who wants to come is welcome and guarenteed screentime. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Agony ~ The Prince Charmings "Into the Woods" (Comment on this)
Friday, December 12th, 2003
5:03 pm	AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I am sitting here waiting to audition for Pirates of Pinsanze. I have just finnishied auditioning for Trojan Women. I am so nervous right now. I don't want to make an ass out of myself. Although, I don't think I have much of a choice considering I don't have accompiment for my music and everybody else in the world does. My audition for Trojan Women went pretty well. Even though I was so nervous I almost pass out onstage during my monologue. I shit you not. This is not an exaggeration. I literally almost pass out for the pressure. I think I covered it nicely considering Macbeth is on the verge of passing out from the pressure as well. I is really hard to typ because my hands are shaking. I don't know if I can take this... Current Mood: nervous Current Music: When You're Evil- Voltaire....It's the song I'm using (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 11th, 2003
12:05 pm	Hurry up and wait.... I went to film class today and we got let out almost immidiately. All we did was turn in our essays and leave. So I went and got a cup of coffee and thought I'd check my live journal. I have been sitting around for a while now. I could get some studying done but I don't have my important notes on me at the moment. So here I am, feeling as though I am wasting precious time doing nothing when I have all the things I stated earlier hanging over my head.I don't know, maybe I've just been Uber stressed this past couple of weeks. Dead week has been anything but dead for me. As stated earlier, I need a vacation. What I need is to get a game together. Any game. I don't care I wanna roleplay. So this is a shout out to any ideas. I would even like to play mutltiple games if that is possible. I've been starving for some action. In the words of Alex: DOOM!!! Current Mood: crazy Current Music: ICP- My Axe It is playing in my head.... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
10:34 am	Finals Hell.... I am so tired. I need Christmas vacation right now. Let's recap what I still have left to do. Chemistry final that I have to prepare all week for. Actor's Journal 4 response papers to plays I haven't even read yet. Film final that I still need to study for Auditions for Pirates of Pinzanz and Trojen Women and I have to prepare a song and a two minute monologue for. That's all I remember at the moment. Still, that is quite the pallette of hings to do. I will get it done though. It's not like it is going to kill me. It will just be nice when it is all done and I can have a vacation. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Hums of the computers in the comp lab (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 7th, 2003
10:42 pm	Taking a break... I'm just taking a break from studying for my finals. I have been very absent from online because I've been busy. I just want this whole school thing to end. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Tenacious D - Friendship (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 21st, 2003
3:57 pm	... I wish today would just go away. I woke up this morning without truley waking up. I was so zombified that it was a joke to count me as one of the living. Me and Alex were not running late because I was going to drive to school for a change. However, for reasons unbeknowest to me, the Camino will not start. We had to walk to school at this point and by the time we had gotten to campus, we were about 10 minutes late. I think I got precious points taken away because of it. On a plus side though, my cold is going away for Thanksgiving break. That is a happy change. I am looking forward to hanging out with my friends when I get down there. Speaking of which, I was thinking about doing a How to Host a Murder for the Thanksgiving party that is definately on Wednesday before Thanksgiving for those who need to get the time off. We already have roles that have been assigned and I'll get them out to people. If, of course, there is sufficient excitment for the idea. Well, anyway, I'll be signing off now. Current Mood: groggy Current Music: "Electocute" - Type-O-Negative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 20th, 2003
1:34 pm	Photography... I am waiting in my Chemestry class for my pictures to develope and I thought I'd drop a line considering I haven't done so in a while. Things are going ok and I've been busy. Yesterday, I did nothing, which was very pleasant. Me and Alex just hung out and watched the Dune saga, which is about 12 hours long when you add it up. That was quite interesting and now me and Alex are quoting tons of things from the entire saga. We are crazy/cool. Anyway, things are going good and I can't wait to see you guys this Thanksgiving break. Later. Current Mood: drained Current Music: The sound of students working in the lab. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 20th, 2003
9:01 am	I was going to post last night, but I fell asleep too soon. This weekend went very well. It was very nice not having anything due this week and to just spend it hanging out with my girlfriend with whom I couldn't hang out with as often as I'd hoped up until now because of conflicting scheduals. As I said it was really nice and I would like to do it again sometime. It actually kind of sucks to be going back to school... (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 18th, 2003
4:48 pm	Notice! I will be unable to attend LARP tonight due to the fact that I have prior ingagments with my parents. I am going to a dinner theatre at the Clarkston Country Club that is sponsered by the Civic Theatre. My parents have been working very hard to orchestrate this and I'm going to support them. I apologize for any inconviniance and bad spelling that has come out of this. Any way, I will talk to you all later. Current Mood: calm Current Music: "What Will Become" - Fear Factory (Comment on this)
Friday, October 17th, 2003
8:58 am	I'm tired and I have a mid-term today. I'm kinda worrried about it. Wish me luck everybody. It is going to be a rough trip. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: "Don't fear the the Reaper" - Blue Oyster Cult (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 1st, 2003
4:08 pm	... Today is a very uneventful day. I would take a nap or something, but I don't feel tired enough to do so. I think I need to face my fears and reservations about the dentist. My wisdom teeth are giving me all kinds of hell. It is about time to get them yanked out. I have to wait until this show is over, but it will be done by next weekend. My mouth hurts very badly and I don't know how long I can stand it. I have been able to quell the pain a bit with bit of ice. However, numbing can only go so far. It has gotten bad enough that I have only eaten one sandwhich toady and that is it because I can't open my mouth very far. I can still do Medea. I just need to take some careful steps and not inflame the teeth. This is all my fault. I needed to go to the dentist ages ago, but I never did because I have a dreaded fear of the dentist. This fear goes far beyond my creepy feelings about dolls, and besides, it is more funny than traumatizing. However, we are talking deeply rooted emotional fear of the dentist and the things he uses. I don't know where it came from, but it is there nevertheless. There comes a time, though, when one has to face his fears a go forth into the abyss of his own deep dark phobias. I'm going to get an appointment and I need alot of emotional support. If I wasn't so deathly afraid, this situation would be funny. I'm sure everybody out there has some irrational fear of something very mundane. On a lighter note, I got a cool background of Dr. Octavious from the Spider-man 2 website. For those who don't know, he will be the antagonist. The pic is awesome and everybody should check it out. Anyways, signing off. Current Mood: sore Current Music: Fear Factory (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 29th, 2003
4:49 pm	Your Ultimate Roleplaying Purity Score Category Your Score Average Hacklust 77.36% Enjoys the occasional head-lopping 53.1% Sensitive Roleplaying 49.37% "But what's my motivation for this scene?" 53.8% GM Experience 59.42% Puts the players through the wringer 68.8% Systems Knowledge 90.82% Played in a couple of campaigns 90% Livin' La Vida Dorka 63.22% Goes nuts on the weekends 62.5% You are 69.86% pure Average Score: 68.2% Take The Ultimate Roleplaying Purity Test and see how you match up! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 26th, 2003
8:52 pm	Rehearsals are really beginning to piss me off. When it takes 30 minutes to do a 10 minute play, you know that there is something wrong. It really bugs me. Here it is: it is 9:00 and they are just starting Alex's play. So, we are running late. I can deal with it though because I just heard that rehearsal was cancelled tomorrow. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: "Jesus was a Lutheran..." (1 Comment |Comment on this)