Waver

Time to make nice...

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 08:21:20 GMT

Souris hadn't change one bit.

It has been six years and she still is impossible to deal with. Jean-luc chuckled to himseld silently while starting the camp fire. It was like she had never left even though they hadn't seen each other in forever. Still, it was good to see her. It felt nice to have something from a much simpler time come back into his life. Even though Souris had never been simple even when they were young, it was her unfaultering innocence that refreshed Jean to the point of honest-to-gods joy.

They did, however, get along about as well as they had when they were kids. They had been reunited for only a couple of days and already they have been giving each other the silent treatment. She had been looking for him for a number of years apparently. This surprised him. They had both grown up and moved on, or so he thought. He at least moved on. He thought that after thier home town burned to the ground that all ties between the old residents were also ashes.

Jean thought that maybe it was time to try to talk to her again. She deserved to at least know what he had been up to for the past few years, even the hard parts. It'll help, in general, to talk about it anyway.

Jean got up from the fire and walked over to were the silver haired girl was sitting. He sat down next to her.

"Can we talk?"

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 20:21:52 GMT

For those who wish to know what is going on....

Apparently, I haven't been showing enough of myself in my work. I'm too much in my head when I'm onstage. It appears that people's concerns were addressed to me, but I didn't do anything about it. That fact of the matter is, I was trying to get better at not thinking about what I was doing and just feeling. However, none of the faculty "saw" the work I was doing and assumed I didn't care.

FUCK.....THAT!

Sorry, momentary lapse of self control.

Because they didn't take the time to see me try to improve myself I get kicked out. Granted my improvement was a slow process and it's only a two year degree program, but I didn't know it was serious enough for dismissal. Maybe I should have tried more to talk with the faculty about my troubles. The problem is, I didn't feel comfortable doing that because I felt under constant scrutiny. I just wanted to prove that I could do it.

I am not completely without blame, but my grades were satisfactory as far as the degree requirements are concerned, and I was working on my problems with the process itself. However, all that doesn't matter now.

I am going to move on from this and bust my ass to prove them wrong. I don't need a BFA to get what I want in life. All it was going to do was make things a fraction less difficult. I can achieve all I want to achieve without that stupid "F" between my "B" and "A". I will move on from this and work hard.

Thank you everyone for your love and support. Even from the most surprising of sources.

Peace out.

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 06:13:15 GMT

Ok, I haven't done this in a long time...

Well, its official, I have been kicked out of the BFA program.

The problem is, I don't know what happened. I was doing all the things that I was supposed to be doing. I don't think that it was completely something that I did. I think that part of it was a political bullshit. What really sodomizes my teddy bear is that I can't defend myself.

Marci has just informed me that I can do whatever I want because I've got nothing to lose....

The problem is I wish that there is something that I could do to make it better. I am in such a dark place right now. I want everyone to know that I will be fine. I will get through this. I just want to know what I did wrong.

I haven't posted anything in such a long time that I have forgotten how to do it. My apologies to those who want to know more about the situation. The thing is, I don't know myself.

I'm ok.

....I'm ok....

Time of Judgement!!!!!

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 20:04:34 GMT

The Final Battle has arrived. Margrave Yuri Konietzko and Queen Tamara Tvarivich call all warriors of Gaia to join with them to defeat the Wyrm at last. Forces gather at the Sept of the Night Sky. Do not tarry!

Time to bust out the Klaives and kick a little Wyrm ass!!!

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 01:10:15 GMT

My dad is reading my Book of Auspices.....and he seems interested....God help us all.

Sat, 27 Dec 2003 18:52:50 GMT

Standing here looking through
thinking what can I do
my options are so few
No way to start new

Looking back through the glass
knowing what is in the past
seeing it move away so fast
the wind blows a whithered cast

Being on the outside
remembering the in
going to run and hide
feeling the pain begin

Seeing through with this animal vision
hunting through all these decisions
Finding a long lost passion
And feeling its sensation

The future is so hazy to my eyes
However, the time draws nigh
to myself I ask this: Why?
Do you want me to lie....?

Being on the outside
remembering the in
going to run and hide
feeling the pain begin

Doing all I can
But it is not enough
fast is the flow of the sand
feeling its touch so rough
Something has to be done
or all will be lost
but so far it has gone
and high will be the cost
I'm ready for what's ahead
it burns deep within me
There should be nothing to dread
For the in should see

Being on the outside
remembering the in
going to run and hide
feeling the pain begin

Being on the outside
remembering the in
wanting to run and hide
but it all must begin

Let it begin...

A poem by Chris Coursy 2003

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 08:02:43 GMT

Maybe if I ignore something it will just go away....

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 07:03:56 GMT

Saturday, we are doing a another small film. Anybody who wishes to be involved is welcome to come. Everybody is guarenteed camera time. It is going to be a short about Twister. I would really like whoever wants to be involved to comment or call me before Saturday. I was thinking of doing it early because I know of a lot of people who work in the evening.

We are going to be filming at Kelly's house, and if it works out for everybody I'd like you all to be there by 10:30 am. Does this work, if not I'm flexible. I want as many people as possible.

My mains need to get back to me on whether or not they can show up on Saturday. I have everyone's ok except for these people:

Carol
Chris
Alex...are you still going to be our spinner, if not let me know please.

As stated, everybody who wants to come is welcome and guarenteed screentime.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Sat, 13 Dec 2003 01:09:07 GMT

I am sitting here waiting to audition for Pirates of Pinsanze. I have just finnishied auditioning for Trojan Women. I am so nervous right now. I don't want to make an ass out of myself. Although, I don't think I have much of a choice considering I don't have accompiment for my music and everybody else in the world does.

My audition for Trojan Women went pretty well. Even though I was so nervous I almost pass out onstage during my monologue. I shit you not. This is not an exaggeration. I literally almost pass out for the pressure. I think I covered it nicely considering Macbeth is on the verge of passing out from the pressure as well.

I is really hard to typ because my hands are shaking. I don't know if I can take this...

Hurry up and wait....

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 20:10:15 GMT

I went to film class today and we got let out almost immidiately. All we did was turn in our essays and leave. So I went and got a cup of coffee and thought I'd check my live journal. I have been sitting around for a while now. I could get some studying done but I don't have my important notes on me at the moment. So here I am, feeling as though I am wasting precious time doing nothing when I have all the things I stated earlier hanging over my head.I don't know, maybe I've just been Uber stressed this past couple of weeks. Dead week has been anything but dead for me.

As stated earlier, I need a vacation.

What I need is to get a game together. Any game. I don't care I wanna roleplay. So this is a shout out to any ideas. I would even like to play mutltiple games if that is possible. I've been starving for some action.

In the words of Alex: DOOM!!!

Finals Hell....

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 18:40:03 GMT

I am so tired. I need Christmas vacation right now. Let's recap what I still have left to do.

Chemistry final that I have to prepare all week for.

Actor's Journal

4 response papers to plays I haven't even read yet.

Film final that I still need to study for

Auditions for Pirates of Pinzanz and Trojen Women and I have to prepare a song and a two minute monologue for.

That's all I remember at the moment. Still, that is quite the pallette of hings to do. I will get it done though. It's not like it is going to kill me. It will just be nice when it is all done and I can have a vacation.

Taking a break...

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 06:44:47 GMT

I'm just taking a break from studying for my finals. I have been very absent from online because I've been busy. I just want this whole school thing to end.

...

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 00:05:29 GMT

I wish today would just go away.

I woke up this morning without truley waking up. I was so zombified that it was a joke to count me as one of the living. Me and Alex were not running late because I was going to drive to school for a change. However, for reasons unbeknowest to me, the Camino will not start. We had to walk to school at this point and by the time we had gotten to campus, we were about 10 minutes late. I think I got precious points taken away because of it.

On a plus side though, my cold is going away for Thanksgiving break. That is a happy change. I am looking forward to hanging out with my friends when I get down there. Speaking of which, I was thinking about doing a How to Host a Murder for the Thanksgiving party that is definately on Wednesday before Thanksgiving for those who need to get the time off. We already have roles that have been assigned and I'll get them out to people. If, of course, there is sufficient excitment for the idea.

Well, anyway, I'll be signing off now.

Photography...

Thu, 20 Nov 2003 21:35:11 GMT

I am waiting in my Chemestry class for my pictures to develope and I thought I'd drop a line considering I haven't done so in a while. Things are going ok and I've been busy. Yesterday, I did nothing, which was very pleasant. Me and Alex just hung out and watched the Dune saga, which is about 12 hours long when you add it up. That was quite interesting and now me and Alex are quoting tons of things from the entire saga. We are crazy/cool.

Anyway, things are going good and I can't wait to see you guys this Thanksgiving break.

Later.

Mon, 20 Oct 2003 16:04:47 GMT

I was going to post last night, but I fell asleep too soon.

This weekend went very well. It was very nice not having anything due this week and to just spend it hanging out with my girlfriend with whom I couldn't hang out with as often as I'd hoped up until now because of conflicting scheduals. As I said it was really nice and I would like to do it again sometime.

It actually kind of sucks to be going back to school...

Notice!

Sat, 18 Oct 2003 23:51:47 GMT

I will be unable to attend LARP tonight due to the fact that I have prior ingagments with my parents. I am going to a dinner theatre at the Clarkston Country Club that is sponsered by the Civic Theatre. My parents have been working very hard to orchestrate this and I'm going to support them. I apologize for any inconviniance and bad spelling that has come out of this. Any way, I will talk to you all later.

Fri, 17 Oct 2003 16:00:45 GMT

I'm tired and I have a mid-term today. I'm kinda worrried about it. Wish me luck everybody. It is going to be a rough trip.

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Wed, 01 Oct 2003 23:22:59 GMT

Today is a very uneventful day. I would take a nap or something, but I don't feel tired enough to do so. I think I need to face my fears and reservations about the dentist. My wisdom teeth are giving me all kinds of hell. It is about time to get them yanked out. I have to wait until this show is over, but it will be done by next weekend. My mouth hurts very badly and I don't know how long I can stand it. I have been able to quell the pain a bit with bit of ice. However, numbing can only go so far. It has gotten bad enough that I have only eaten one sandwhich toady and that is it because I can't open my mouth very far. I can still do Medea. I just need to take some careful steps and not inflame the teeth. This is all my fault. I needed to go to the dentist ages ago, but I never did because I have a dreaded fear of the dentist. This fear goes far beyond my creepy feelings about dolls, and besides, it is more funny than traumatizing. However, we are talking deeply rooted emotional fear of the dentist and the things he uses. I don't know where it came from, but it is there nevertheless.

There comes a time, though, when one has to face his fears a go forth into the abyss of his own deep dark phobias.

I'm going to get an appointment and I need alot of emotional support. If I wasn't so deathly afraid, this situation would be funny. I'm sure everybody out there has some irrational fear of something very mundane.

On a lighter note, I got a cool background of Dr. Octavious from the Spider-man 2 website. For those who don't know, he will be the antagonist. The pic is awesome and everybody should check it out.

Anyways, signing off.

Mon, 29 Sep 2003 23:49:30 GMT

Your Ultimate Roleplaying Purity Score
Category	Your Score	Average
Hacklust	77.36% Enjoys the occasional head-lopping	53.1%
Sensitive Roleplaying	49.37% "But what's my motivation for this scene?"	53.8%
GM Experience	59.42% Puts the players through the wringer	68.8%
Systems Knowledge	90.82% Played in a couple of campaigns	90%
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Sat, 27 Sep 2003 04:00:07 GMT

Rehearsals are really beginning to piss me off. When it takes 30 minutes to do a 10 minute play, you know that there is something wrong. It really bugs me. Here it is: it is 9:00 and they are just starting Alex's play. So, we are running late. I can deal with it though because I just heard that rehearsal was cancelled tomorrow.

Interesting Results....

Sat, 27 Sep 2003 03:51:58 GMT

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Meh...

Wed, 24 Sep 2003 19:02:24 GMT

There is not much going on in the House of Coursey/Mann/Bradley. We are spending a quiet morning in our seperate rooms. I think Alex is sick and that's why he is in his room. We should all give a big shout out to him and hope he feels better. If just to let him know that people are thinking about him. Jake on the other hand, he is just still asleep and we should all make fun of the lazy bastard. I've already gone to school and come home and cleaned the kitchen and he's not even moved from the spot he was in before I left!!

Lazy Bastard...

Anyway, life is ood so far. I can't complan. Just screwing around.

"Home...The word sounds so familiar. Yet, it feels so alien. - Silence-In-The-Wind, Galliard Silent Strider

Wed, 24 Sep 2003 18:55:19 GMT

Doberman
You are a member of Doberman's family. You have a
bad reputation, but it is mostly undeserved.
You tend to be mistrustful of outsiders, but
you love your family (birth or adopted) more
than life itself and would die to protect them.

What Totem is Your Guardian Spirit?
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In case anyone was wondering, I coun't my friends and girlfriend as my family as well.

Thu, 18 Sep 2003 04:38:32 GMT

This is pretty funny...

what do you mean vampire. you wouldn't even be able
to fight aginst one, just give up and go on and
kill you self because you so pathetic i just
have one qustion for you why did you take this
test you worthless human? i come on you can't
even tell day from night

what kind of vampire would you be
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Funny...

Wed, 17 Sep 2003 19:46:51 GMT

I think it is funny that I got 11 comments on my last entry and I posted three little sentence fragments. It is kind of humorous when you think about it.

Anyway, I am back in the same computer lab. Me and Alex are sitting here not doing much of anything. We are, however, keeping ourselves entertained with internet shanadigans (bad spelling).

Still not much is going on, so I thought I might drop a line to all my friends and especially my girlfriend.

Laters.